#this is the actual worst#because in the end he isn’t worried that she’s having sex dreams about stefan#that’s not his worst fear#his worst fear is that stefan made/makes elena happier than he ever could#and ultimately that’s what he cares about#her happiness#and it’s not just elena either#it’s stefan to#the thought that stefan and elena could be happy together?#more importantly in a universe in which he didn’t exist?#that breaks him#fuck everything
The Vampire Diaries 5x19 “Man on Fire” Episode Stills
[meta from Damon’s POV but DE-related of course]
This is it. This is the line which should give us all the definite clue what Damon is feeling in 5x18.
Listen to Damon in 5x03.
No one tells me how I live my life, no one tells me who I love, especially not some vindictive prehistoric witch, and definitely not the universe.
That was Damon laughing at the universe. Because they were together, they’d been happy for so long, and Damon is a romantic at heart, secretly believing that true love conquers all.
"True love prevails… the universe be damned." - Tessa (5x07)
The situation seemed easy. They had conquered the sire bond (nope, not gonna dwell on the terrible writing of that one), the had gone through Elena’s off-phase and Damon’s “bumps,” and there was nothing they couldn’t survive.
Now? Now everything is different. Not only is Elena giving up on them because they are “bad for each other,” but the universe (not the universe in fact, but that’s the generic term for supernatural crap) screws him over - again. Only this time he doesn’t have the thing that carried him through before - certainty that he and Elena will survive.
Supernatural stuff? He can deal with that. Elena’s rejection? He can deal with that, too. Put everything together and add Stefan to the mix, and it will get too much.
This is why he lashes out. When he says that he doesn’t want to see or hear Elena any more, it’s not like he means that he doesn’t love her any more or hates her. It’s more like he loves her too much to have her close but out of reach and watch her inevitably - or so he thinks - get back together with Stefan.
Say what you want about Caroline Dries but atleast she’s not keeping Elena’s feelings about the brothers a “mystery” to keep the triangle alive, she’s made it pretty straight -
Damon and Elena are clearly in love with each other but as all legendary couples, they’ll have a hella lot of obstacles between them, sometimes those being themselves.
Elena and Stefan have officially and truly moved on from their romantic phase and seem to have settled into a good friendship and I couldn’t have wished for a better change on the show!
The Vampire Diaries 5x21 “Promised Land” Episode Stills
"Oh you know, looking at the stars, listening to the Universe laugh at me"
we’re not doing anything…